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.Thursday, May 24, 2007 ' 2:30 PM Y

I felt like im very very damn kan pua suay nowadays. It's ok when i've only got 80 cents in my wallet, but now i've lost company's money too $$$$$ =.= it's about sg $300+ the moment when my dad says that im gonna pay him back this money by cutting my salary every month, i cried. i know, i know it's my responsibility, i know it's my fault but look at me, how little money i got each month and he said he's cutting (.:*_*:.) cb __ and he said that " tell me which company in this world which when you lost money and you don't have to pay back?" then i feel like saying "ya lah i'll pay back, you happy?" BUT cannot! i really don't feel like paying back at all cos i don't find any reason why will i lost the money can! =.= but anyway, i couldn't give him any explaination and that is why he's cutting my salary :( very bad.. very bad bad month for me.

dear called me just now (finally) i've been calling him since morning and he didn't answered. I find that he's damn weird, weird about what, don't know..~ Dear is not cute anymore =/ i still prefer that joker i know last time. don't know why is he so serious nowadays. (but im kinda serious nowadays too :p) at least i got talk sweety to him a little, but he always joke with me. it's ok to joke but his jokes are too "kinda serious" =.= i hate this. almost gonna quarrel just now but in the end never. hmm~ no matter, i still love this silly boy of mine :]

I was very touched about dear brought me a ring for our 1yr anniversary. frankly speaking, this was his FIRST presents to me. though he never bought me any presents for any special occassion before, but at least he knows that 1year annviersary are IMPORTANT, keke =x and that ring he bought cost for about $70+, damn hell expensive and not worth ok.. cos the diamonds are not real, they're just crystal. im heart pain for him, lol =p but seriously, not worth that hell price at all -.- just because of it's brand or whatever.. but still, im loving it cos it's from my dearest boy :] and dear are kinda silly.. he said he thought that those diamonds are real. the ring that he bought have around total of 1 carats of diamonds. and if they're all real, it'll cost for about SG$10,000+ lol, there's a big difference between $70 and $10,000. then dear said that he'll save up his money and buy a real one for me x] nah* for proposal ring that's better, hehe ;D

i have not yet told anyone what i've had for my food today =D morning, milk (i found it in the fridge, not yet expire ;p) lunch, instant meeee. dinner, the food left in the kitchen, bought by who, dunno~ wahaha =x but hungry can.. =/ im trying to comfort myself that "well, you can diet at the same time!" -.- trying hard. but i kinda had a gastric pain.. i need dear to takecare of me whenever i have this kinda fuck thing. but ever since im here alone, i can't have him with me :( sad sad sad*

because of im broke these days, so i never had a chance to drink. yesterday, because of i didn't drink, i couldn't sleep =/ seriously, i can't stop drinking.. i need to drink. maybe is because i used to work in a pub and i drink everyyyynight (all free/"free flow") lol. and i can't stop drinking now.. and very little lucky of me, i found 6cans of beer hiding under my dad's table, keke =x and yay! i can drink them tonight =D no worries, cos my dad always couldn't remember did he bought any beer before lol.. so bad luck of him, haha =X

i'll end here, nightyy everyone. muack* Y

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