.Thursday, September 6, 2007 ' 11:00 PM Y
没有 joker 的日子, 第45天 .
Today, a day that i'll never forget. I seriously don't know what the hell is wrong with father. Everything little things i do, HE JUST PICKED ON ME. It's just a small problem today and he hitted me. He threw a water bottle (with water inside) to my head and spoiled my brother's laptop (while im playing with it) lols please lor.. old man already, still act like one big fuck. I just keep on smiling away, like give him one lanjiao bin, i confirm he saw my that face he buay tahan. He said that if i make him even hotter inside, he'll hit me till i die or something like that.. yeah, i know that he would really do this if i really make him more angry. He can do whatever he want to me BUT just one thing, don't ever regret can le, right?! if i really die, he's gonna get guilty forever. And the whole family's gonna blame him, so he can just simply go fuck off man, pui* I hate people think without using brain, talk without thinking at all and act like one gangster infront of me, if only im not his daughter, didn't he know that im his daughter? so is he gonna hit me till i die or not? say it another word, i don't mind dying also lah.. im tired of living with HIM lor knn.. -.- he told my brother that he bear his temper with me for a year plus already, he can't stand anymore.. Let me tell him this lahh, i've also been bearing my temper with him for all along this 1year plus. He think he's the only one who can't stand ppl? many ppl cant stand him OK.. cb, give him face only lor.. knn
Also don't know why.. after he hitted me, i don't feel anything at all. i mean, if the person who hit me is Dear or my brother or maybe my mother, my heart will feel pain. But for my "father" he can simply just go and fuck off. I wanna claim something here too.. I never treat him as a person i respect before, cos since young he never play a part as a FATHER. He's not suit to be a FATHER at all. I've grown up to 17 this year, only since last year i've been living with him. yeah so what the fuck? All along 17 years, he only play his part as a father for this 1 year plus only. so what is it worth for me to let him hit me????? he just don't fucking lay his hand on me, cos that would surely be a mark that'll be with me FOREVER..
I wrote a letter to my Jo this afternoon. How i wish he's here with me.. But i know he would surely tell me that "no matter what he's your father." :( but that is what i like about him too :p dear dear dear dear dear dear dear ... faster come out. miss u so much :'(
shit man, spoil my whole day mood -.- .........
