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.Tuesday, December 11, 2007 ' 7:09 PM Y

11th December (Today) :

Mommy is going back sg tomorrow.. I'm so sad.
I hate this kind of feeling.. being apart with ur love ones.
Picture above, my baby JOJO !
his latest picture taken by my uncle..
I cried when the moment i saw this picture.
I really, really, really, miss him alot..
I finally got proved that he's not lost !!!!
And seems like he looks the same..
only the shape of his mouth growing sharper.
Plans has been changed again..
I won't be going back to China anymore.
And will be staying at bkk to work like last time.
At the same time, after awhile will be finding a school for my cosmetic courses.
I will be back to sg on the earlier Feb,
until i finish my cosmetic course then maybe i can go back to sg and stay already.
hope all my loves can wait for me patiently,
i will be reaching my goal very soon! trust me..

Outside Sofitel hotel

V9 Wine bar

9th December:

Went to V9 Bar with family.
V9 Bar is a very classy wine bar pub at bkk "the Sofitel Hotel"
It's on the highest floor, which is 34th floor.
Very beautiful place where you can see the whole BKK
My dad damn generous that day,
he actually said that we're only gonna open 1 bottle of wine,
but in the end he opened 3 bottels lol..
the wines there are very expensive.
And i was like quite drunk in the end..
cos before that i drank quite alot during dinner's time.
But i did it on purpose to get drunk anyway.. :'(

brother driving into this bridge..

and we're in the road of the bridge now..

7th December :

Took this picture while im in the car..
Going to another state of thai.
And gotto drive through this beautiful bridge :)

me & rachel sis :)

2 birthday girl :)

2nd December :

Happy birthday to stella & me !!!
Im finally 17.. =/ faster 18 then 19 thank u!!!
I don't have to sneak out today already and i went out during day time.
Me, rachel and stella went to cine and take our neo print and we had our lunch together.
Then we went to kbox and sing for around 3hrs. And then rachel going to work :(
and me & stella went to wisma and walked around awhile..
the whole journey sounds kinda bored, cos we've got our BIG PLANS.
the main theme for our birthday is during the night.

Around 7pm we went to meet baby at bugis awhile..
I didn't did it on purpose to had argues with him again.
But sometimes im alittle childish i know..
Baby said he'll be busy at night, don't know if he can meet me.
But i will be leaving tomorrow!
i don't wish to seperate with him at BUGIS STREET LIKE THAT.
Ever since i came back, i haven't really had a chance to sit down and talk to him.
I've got alot alot of things to tell him..
To think back the times when he's in prison and tagging,
we've wasted 4months of time with each other.

But he begin to tell me that he's busy with his stuffs again..
I shouldn't have blame him and i should be understanding.
But i can't make it so i feel like crying at that moment..
Not because he don't satisfied what i want, is just that i couldn't bear to leave him..
he don't know.. cos i never told him.
In the end he sent me to the cab's door and kiss me goodbye... ='(

So as i was saying we've got big plans during the night..
but no.. it's really sad in the end. Stella was too tired.
She slept over and can't really wakeup already.
Rachel gotto wake up at 6 in the morning the next day..
And before that, after i reached home from bugis.
I called dear and talked about night's plan, and we had conflicts again.
Seriously, i really never blamed anyone.. i blamed myself for leaving.
If i've got somemore times with them,
things wouldn't have to be rushed like this.
so i stay awake alone the whole night till the next day morning...
and i'm leaving to BKK.

outside cine. and we are all quite drunk

me & lin :)

My birthday cake from baby :D

the sushi i made

1st December :

whole day staying at home, until midnight 12 (planning to sneak out again :p)
Before that in the afternoon, i made some sushi for dear.
I don't know if he ever remember that i've once told him before,
if im back to sg, i will make sushi for him cos he loves to eat.
Before sneaking out, was on phone with dear and we had a big fight.
I cried like stupid girl.. Cos we had conflicts over going where later.
He keep wants me to go to his house and see his family
but i haven't really prepared ( i mean the feeling) lol..

In the end i went but with some anger..
He brings me to 12th floor (but dear's living 13th floor)
and we walked to the end and climb up the stairs to 13th floor..
i saw something!!!! meihui is standing there with a small birthday cake :D
It's a surprise from him.. he can't sense that im actually very touching
and i keep blame myself from the inside,
cos i was like so ridiculous just now with him on phone.
I cut the cake and gave to baby's family :)
and baby's mom gave me one red packet somemore.. damn paiseh :p

So after that immediately, me & dear went down to meet his friends.
and we all went to cine and sing K..
They sing one happy birthday songs for me, and make me laugh like mad lol..
And we almost forgot something, the sushi i made for baby.
In the end we shared to everyone, and it taste like shit indeed.
haha but they happily eating cos it's made from the birthday girl :p
and i'm very happy today :)

baby's new clean look :)

30th November :

My day 1 to step out to the door of my house.
why am i putting it this way =)
I was back home on 25th Nov.
But im only allow to go out during my birthday (2nd Dec)
but 30th nov is a big day! so i take up all my risk to sneak out.
I know this sounds quite ridiculous, like.. why can't i go out
but im used to this kind of 'prison life'
everything takes time.. as everyone can see, im not even allowed to go out in the past..
but slowly, i'll get all my freedom back like in the past too.

Actually i was planned to go back sg during X'mas time,
but plans are always been changed by someone -.-
But im happy to go back earlier as 30th nov, this important day.
My dearest baby had just finished his tagging, he got back his fullest freedom.
He must be really happy if i can be with him to share this happy day.

I gave him a BIG SURPRISE. he didn't know that im back to sg already.
and i asked stella to meet him that day to pass him a BIG present.
I just pop out in front of him without any warning :D
and his very first reaction is to hug me :)
i should have take down videos =/

so after that, it's already 3plus in the midnight.
we got no place left to go and we went to jason's house and drink.
And i went back home 7 in the morning.

loved