.Tuesday, May 20, 2008 ' 9:25 AM Y
I went to visit baby during midnight.
And I held his hand through the night beside him.
His heart beat was around 80plus.. He's in a deep sleep.
Quietly with my head lying next to him...
Hoping that he could feel it's me.
I couldn't really talk as the nurse are in the room too.
I took a long time to take out the handkerchief in his hand.
And I wipe his face for him, he never bathe for 2weeks,
I know he's very uncomfortable.
Baby's soooo cute. Really like a little baby..
And I love him so much.
I know this pain couldn't be compared to the pain when he's inside.
At least when he's inside, I know he's doing alright.
Each time when I walking towards the lift, going up to see him,
my heart beats very fast... Always nervous, always think alot.
Whenever I'm beside his bed, I cannot get myself staring at him, cos i will cry.
I need to talk to him.. keep talking non stop, if not i will think alot.
I'm alright.. I'm really ok.
Cos if people were to ask me, will he wakeup? my answer is yes.
Cos I got alot of confidence on him.
I know his strong headed character..
I don't think he would want to waste his time sleeping.
Only that he couldn't help it to wakeup earlier, he needs some time.
So i will definitely be patience with him.
As for this long long hard distance, I'm ready and I promise I will walk through with him..
