.Friday, May 23, 2008 ' 1:06 PM Y
I'm really very sad at the moment now..
No, since last night after the phone call with meimei.
I guess this sadness will last longer than I expected.
I won't mention it in my post, it's only between me and sis.
A few more months to go..
And I won't be flying around anymore.
But now, baby tell me why........
I go and you come,
I come and you go...
I've been waiting for your June's trip to Thailand here.
Looking forward to see you going for NS
and begin with your new life.
Thinking and planning for our future after I quit my job here.
Just a few more steps to go....
It's just a little distance more.
And we can be together like before.
That's what we've been longing for....
2years, not easy. Never easy...
This pathetic truth is killing me..
I keep playing his favourite songs non stop..
try to understand how he feels that time when he's listening to that song.
keep playing and thinking non stop...
keep running through my mind non stop..
keep thinking of him non stop..
keep tearing non stop.
I just keep asking why... I keep asking why..
I don't know why... but I wanna know why
Why does everything seems so unfair to me and him always..
why........
If I ever had a chance to talk to him again,
I wanna let him know that,
I will not walk away from him anymore..
That will be the first and last time, this is a promise.
I will also believe that, that will be his first and last time for making a mistake in our r/s.
I will never turn my back and walk away from him..
Will never make him feel disappointed or even cry.
Though he always make me cry..
But I know he loves and care for me alot.
I really miss him, alot alot....
