it's lovee;

.Monday, June 30, 2008 ' 10:23 AM Y

When I was young, I heard of the word "心痛"..
But I really don't know what it means by that
and I used to asked myself will heart really feels pain ?
Now, I've tasted the feeling..
It feels hurt.. alot alot.
I mean, when something really happened..
Sometimes I really do think I deserved it.
But sometimes not,
cos I always believe that how you want a person to treat you,
it depends on how you treat a person... right ?

What I've been doing for the past few days...
I'm sorry to make people who care for me to worry.
Sometimes I just want to be alone =/
But I am ok now ~ (^.^)v
I spent $80 a day to buy happiness..
Well, $80 is counted alot here.
But I have no idea where have the $80 gone to.. seriously.
oh yeah, my extension has finally all dropped off today..
And I went to cut my hair, goodness like shit okay...
Regret Regret Regret... Like mushroom hair, lol..

As usual I drink alot during this weekend.
Before I drink, I was thinking will I start crying after I drink?
So I'm still considering..
Cos, I'm trying my best to grow up.
Who knows..
Before I start drinking, the unbearable feelings are coming..
"with my head in my hands, I sit and cry" yes.
Maybe because I'm alone in a big house,
got no one to talk to that's why.
I watch comedy in my laptop, trust me,
I tried my very best to concentrate on the show...
In the end I got more frustrated,
the show and my mood doesn't match at all.
It turns out to makes me feel worst..

Com'on I am strong to overcome this lor..
Yes the 1st "passerby", you are right.
Cheers *