.Sunday, August 24, 2008 ' 12:20 AM Y
Don't know why...
Suddenly, I felt so sad.
Just out of the blue,
I think about the past..
The first day when I was brought to Thailand,
and I'm not only been brought to Thailand..
I've been alone at many other countries too.
The feeling was terrible,
I just keep telling myself "I wanna go home.."
I guess this feeling will last for the rest of my life.
Though it's not the concept on how people thought
it was 5 or 10years long.
But this road seems very long and hard for me.
It's not easy, never easy..
What I've gone through here,
I never really told anyone before.
Cos I always told myself
"what for telling them when they won't feel how I feel at all..."
Until today, I am still very unsatisfying..
Still asking the same question to my family and myself.
Why am I brought to here?
It's a big turning point to my life,
and yes I admit, there good and bad..
But I'm sorry, the bad point has been killing me for so long.
Even though I tried so hard to forget about it..
I am someone who can throw everything
just to fight for my freedom.
I wanna choose what I wanna do,
what I like to eat and where I would love to go.
I want my life...
I've been making alot of mistakes during work these days..
This has much more proven that
I'm not interested in working here at all.
Dad scolded me very badly.. Well I don't mind.
But what makes me really angry is that until today,
he still asked stupid questions like "do you have the heart working for me?"
Does he have to even ask me this??
Ain't me been brought here cos I'm forced to?
Heart?? NO, it's never been with me since the 1st day I'm working HERE.
So please do not ask me stupid questions
that makes me feels like killing myself.
Luckily now baby is with me...
He has been brighting up my everyday with his lovely dovey ~
and and and, actually I will be quitting soon...
SO........
辛苦的日子快过去，
开心的日子快来临 !!!
Dear, I will jiayou de, you too ~~~ :)
WO AI NI !!!
