.Tuesday, June 29, 2010 ' 12:42 PM Y
HONESTLY, sometimes I really don't know what I want in my life......
I admit that I often wish for something which isn't very realistic.
In fact, I keep imagine that I could live the life I always wanted...
When I was in Thailand, my mind everyday was only thinking of going HOME.
Keep wanna go home, keep wanna go home and keep wanna go home...
I always wished that I'll be able to go back Sg the very next morning when I wake up..
I always told my friends, I wrote in my blog, how fucking much I wanna go back.
Now that I'm back here.. And I'm back for already 1year 4months...
About a few months back, I begin to have this feeling that I wanna go back to Thailand....
Tsk tsk, I don't know what to say. I asked myself many times, what exactly I really want??
I also don't know.... =( Am really confused....
Maybe because after I came back,
The feeling isn't as good as how I imagined it when I was in Thai.
As in... Things always changed, a lot of things had changed.
I felt that I've got nobody and nothing left here..
I don 't have any feeling like I wanna stay here for somebody or
I wanna stay here for something.. No goal, no inspiration, nothing.
I rather go back to Thailand and live my life alone like how I did it in the past....
At least I'm living somewhere nobody knows me..
Though Bangkok is also a city, but lifestyle there were slow and relax.
I love everything there.. When I was there, I never felt so stress like here before.
Haisssssssssssssssssssss........................ How.................................. ?
My colleagues.. We're waiting to knock off together.........
